she's your cocaine.

one_oh_one @ 2007-04-18T13:53:00

2007-04-18T17:54:24Z

I WILL BE LIVING IN FLORENCE, ITALY FOR FOUR MONTHS.

oh my! i think i will go...and never come back.

one_oh_one @ 2006-09-17T17:06:00

2006-09-17T21:08:29Z

i have a lot of reading to do.

i've never actually sat down and made myself read 65 pages at once. i've never been the type to stay up all night and write a paper. IT'S CRAZY that i am actually doing that now. maybe i'll actually learn something now....i guess i only care now because i'm paying $46,000 to do this shit.

one_oh_one @ 2006-09-12T18:26:00

2006-09-12T22:28:03Z

hello. manhattan loves me and i love manhattan. nyu loves me and i love nyu. we might get married. or we might get divorced becuase of the ridiculous amount of reading i have to do right now that i'm not doing becuase i got so desperate and i actuallly came on livejournal just to distract myself. fabulous!

mike made me vegetarian chilli last weekend. he's the best boyfriend. ever. yea.

LAW AND ORDER IS FILMING AT MY JOB TOMORROW!

1] I WILL respond with something random about you
2] I WILL challenge you to try something
3] I WILL pick a colour I associate with you
4] I WILL tell you something I like about you
5] And also the first clear memory of you
6] I WILL relate you to some animal
7] I WILL ask you something I always wanted to
8] And you WILL need to post this on your blog

one_oh_one @ 2006-07-31T13:47:00

2006-07-31T17:47:45Z

soooo as of august 27th my new address will be 110 east 14th street. YEA BOY.

i got the apartment style with theresa, a girl from california, and a girl from jersey.

life is good.

one_oh_one @ 2006-07-06T09:48:00

2006-07-06T13:49:57Z

it's kind of gross how much i like mike.

like we're in love and we know it and when we look at each other we wonder how it all happened. cuase it happened pretttty quickly. so who ever thought i....bridget hayde....could handle a boyfriend for over 1/2 a year. jeez. you're not the only one who can't believe it.

august 28, i take over manhattan. yea bitches.

someone stop me from drinking bottles of wine instead of beer this summer.

one_oh_one @ 2006-06-14T18:49:00

2006-06-14T22:51:02Z

schools over. i've waited for this moment for.........the past 4 years. ha. as soon as i got into high school i was excited for the end. it's an awkward experiment to fuck kids up i think. whatever.

i can actually for once say i love a boy. yea let's not talk about it becuase it freaks me out too. thanks.

today we went to the beach. i like his friends so much they crack me up. tonight we're going to kaseys in rvc. gonna celebrate my donewithhighschoolness. i'm excited.

my legs hurt.

i'm only drinking water from now on.

i dont think ill be updating much more.

one_oh_one @ 2006-05-17T21:32:00

2006-05-18T01:34:08Z

i finished my pig paper.
i don't really go to school anymore. it's such a good feeling.
18 more days.

i'm gross. i can't move. my stomach/back/legs/head/ihatebeingagirl/i'm in pain. it all hurts. sorry boys, but i have fucking cramps. deal with it. i always feel bad for mike when i get cramps. i take it out on him. poor guy, he deserves better.

on the upside. i grew! tada. i measured myself. and yes, i'm still growing. jesus.
i have sucessfully been drinking more water than necessary. but it freaks me out if it's not bottled. bleh.

I'M RAMBLING TO PREVENT MYSELF FROM CLEANING MY ROOM!

one_oh_one @ 2006-05-09T22:23:00

2006-05-10T02:25:27Z

awesome fucking birthday. thank you to everyone who said happy bday and made me feel special :)
my parents are buying me the new video iPod which i'm psyyyyched about.
mike got me a $100 gift card to h&m becuase he knows i love it, and my sugar free jelly beans, and took me out to a beautiful dinner. so sweet.
me and seija had our day together. 'twas wonderufl. jackies home tonight. such a good present. my ap is tomorrow so after that, I'M DONE BITCHES. yea fuck school. annnnnnnnd it's an amazing week.

now i just need this rain to go away for my partay on saturday :)

p.s. shout out to jason who gave me his phone charger cuase i'm a drunken looooser.

one_oh_one @ 2006-05-02T22:01:00

2006-05-03T02:06:15Z

hello again.

so i figured it out tonight. i think i would be content if i could do this with my life:
be in a room/house/area/whatever by myself. have one visitor a day. have unlimited wine. and just sit, and spend the day with that ONE person. anyone. it could be the person i HATE. just to spend an afternoon with them, or a few hours, with only them, and no distractions...i think that would be nice. we'd be able to talk in confidence. we'd be able to do what we want. we'd be able to get fucked up. we'd be able to be honest. we'd be able to just talk. i feel like everyone our age just rambles. i know i do it. it's like you talk just to do it. cuase you're supposed to. not becuase you have anything good or meaningful to say. i want to do this. be stuck in a room alone, and just have one surprise visitor a day. get to know them. REALLY get to know them. i feel like i always want to get to know people, but i don't let anyone get to KNOW me. oh well. but thats my dream. one visitor a day. all of my attention on one thing. one person. not 20 million other sounds and people and duties. just one thing.

i guess i just want to have a simple life.

one_oh_one @ 2006-04-26T17:56:00

2006-04-26T22:01:02Z

oooh look, i stumbled upon my journal.

i'm very proud of myself, i just did my apes homework. AND IT'S NOT THE PERIOD BEFORE IT'S DUE! gasp. and it's STILL SUNNY OUT. doublegasp.

today has been productive: i left school, hungout with mike, went to the gym (sosorestillbutthisgrossnessneedstoleaave), did my apes essay, cleaned up le chambre (the room, for you non french speakers...) and NOW i'm updating this shit. next i'm going to read chapter 26 for apes and do my objectives. oye. that textbook has been attached to my body for the last few days.

mikes good. the summers coming up. i'm excited about nyu. i'm excited to leave home. i'm excited to decorate my dorm and get drunk with my new friends. i'm excited to meet some smart cute boys. and some smart girls. and fun ones. i'm just excited that in 35 more school days, i won't have to attend periods 1-9 anymore. thankgod.

birthdays coming up! oh yes people, may 9, don't forget.

i got my prom dress. yes. that's done with. i've been feeling productive. a little shitty about myself, but atleast i'm not stressed out with a ton of work becuase i'm doing it all on time. i just need to finish those 3 pieces for art...whoops....

one_oh_one @ 2006-04-04T20:45:00

2006-04-05T00:49:07Z

i feel so much better.

my mom let me go shopping today becuase my boss said i need to get more dressed up for work.

actually, the way he put it was more like, "nicole, bridget looked like shit last night. tell all the hostesses that there are no more jeans, sneakers, or anything like that allowed anymore. get fucking dressed up"

thanks, woody, thanks so much. i was sick :( leave me alone :( and it was raining! gosh.

i wish i had more "me" time. or "me and mike" time. or "me and seija" time. etc. it's like my life goes like this
wake up at 6:30, go to school, get home, shower/etc get ready for work at 5, work till either 9 or 10, do "homework" or go to the gym, etc, fall asleep, repeat. i never have time to just sit in my house and read a book. or run outside. or get ices with brittany and jason which they just offered but i had to turn down. oye.

i have to study for this freaking apes test so i can actually not get my acceptance to nyu taken away. that wouldn't be cool man....

i got the cutest shit at h&m, old navy, and gap today!

one_oh_one @ 2006-04-03T14:38:00

2006-04-03T18:43:02Z

HAHA. i quit tepper&tepper. those people ripped me off by not giving me all my money, they were rude when i returned, and i'm too busy/stressed about other things to worry about fucking tax season.

i'm working tonight, tomorrow, wed+thurs basketball, and then fri, sat, sun, monday at olives. so yea, i'm working every night this week.

i'm sick. slash/ihave allergies? it sucks. so i stayed home today. which consisted of me sleeping for 15 hours. i took that allergy medecine...the nighttime kind...that shit fucks me up. i can't function on it. nor can i really get a goodnight sleep on it. it's weird. i thought that was the purpose of it...

the play was good. i'm glad i did it. it was a great experience :)thanks to everyone who came.

i'll be making money again. which is AWESOME. becuase i have so much that i need to pay for. speaking of...i need to get a money order for the ticket i need to pay by tomorrow...becuase i can't ask my parents for a check...becuase they can't know that i left my car in island park for the night and got a ticket at 6:17 in the morning while i slept at mikes. that wouldn't go over too nicely.

SPRING BREAK COUNTDOWN= 8 more school days?! what?! syracuse, manhattan, all my lovers, here i come.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-29T14:43:00

2006-03-29T19:45:24Z

yea motherfuckersssssssss i got into boston university!
i was way excited. but i've decided on it. and yes, i will be attending NYU in the fall.

which means i'll be living with theresa in some big apartment style suite. which is pretty, suite....uh i had to do it sorry.

went to the ref-fuel plant and the merrick landfilll thing. yea we had a hot hot hot tourguide that me and becky drooled over while walking on garbage. no, becky, it wasn't the theory of relativity...he really was just plain hot. and hot. yea. and hot.

the play is TOMORROW. dum dum dummmmmmmmm.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-26T11:44:00

2006-03-26T16:48:24Z

went to nyu yesterday. gawsh it's nice.
(mad expensive. )

we have cupcake ices at my job.

the play is in....(throwsupinmouth) 4 days.

my birthday is in like...45 days or something like that.

i should hear from boston within the next few days.
the website said they sent out the decision. cough.

i have so much work to hand in by...thursday.

this weekend was alright. nothing too exciting. i miss mike i think.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-22T18:47:00

2006-03-22T23:49:48Z

i was just doing some research on nyu and the dorms. god i'm so tempted to go there.

i realized today after reading an article on how NYU is the number 1 sought after school, how lucky i am to have the opportunity to go there! it's perfect, it has a great education system, great people, AMAZING city and location, it's close enough to home, it's far away enough from home, it's beautiful...it's nyu.

downsides? it costs a billion dollars. it's a lot of work. it's a big committment.

either way, making my decision is going to be ridiculous.

i'm so stressed out. i'm sick becuase i'm stressed out. i need to do work. goodbye.

the play is in.......GASP. one week. i had another dream last night. but it was a good dream. i dreamt that i did amazing, and that i decided i wanted to be an actor for the rest of my life. ha.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-18T20:39:00

2006-03-19T01:42:36Z

adderall chased by red wine.

that's a great way to start off my night. no? oh well. i think it's okay that i self medicate.

i have some serious fucking cramps. i guess that would explain the weight gain and grossness feeling. bleh, being a girl is gross.

i locked my key in my car last night. so i had to stay at mikes. i'm not complaining. my dad's friend opened it for me. i don't know how. whatevvver.

i was supposed to go party it up in the city tonight. but lack of money is killing me. i had 2 parties at clubs i was invited to. whatthefuck. damn my room is messy. it's so gross. i don't want to go in it....someone clean it and i'll make out with youuuuuuuuuuu.

so this blonde swedish girl (read: FUCKINGHOT) who weighs about 90 lbs and is just drop dead gorgeous is in love with my boyfriend. i don't understand him. he has the hottest girl in the world basically saying 'i love you' to him, and he sticks around with me....the crazy bitch who doesn't treat him as well as i should. he's awesome. and makes me laugh. i can't wait to see him later. i'm gonna get pretty for him right now. after i finish my wine.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-13T21:25:00

2006-03-14T02:27:09Z

yay! i got into nyu today!!!!!

it's only the general studies program, but i'm really super excited about it. that means i can get 2 years to figure out if i definitley want to do psychology while testing out some of the classes, but not having to make any definite decisions. i'm so happy about it!

too bad it's like....a trillion dollars. we'll see what happens with boston university now.

my parents are very happy, which is good as well.
mike starts his new job tomorrrow. which means less of him. which means less of my happiness.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-12T15:27:00

2006-03-12T20:34:51Z

you know i'm bored when i do this shit.

50 things about me

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5"10.5-5"11. i don't stop growing

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
notrecently..and by recently, i mean ever.

3. Do you own a gun?
fuck no

4. Rehab?
not yet....

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
very. very.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
fucking gross

7. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
diet snapple/coffee

8. Do you smoke?
yes. occasionaly.

9. Do you do push-ups?
yes. at the gym

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
no not yet. i plan on it though.

12. Do you like painkillers?
fuck yes i do.

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
awesome blowjobs. no, but really...i don't lure the opposite sex.

14. Do you own a knife?
no, i use my fists

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
i wish i did. i want some adderall.

16.Birthday ?
may 9 bitches

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
1. my hair is wet
2. i dont want to work
3. this is awkward

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought.
a dress for the play, a cardigan, and earrings

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
water, coffee, diet snapple, seltzer with lime/lemon, and alcohol

20. What time did you wake up today?
10

21. current hair color?
chocolate cherry. eggplant. yaknow

22. Current worry?
getting into bc, nyu, and new paltz

23. Current hate?
not having money and feeling fat

24. Favorite place to be?
on vacation

25. Least favorite place to be?
class

26. Where would you like to go?
an island. far away. or france. somewhere sunny and beautiful.

27. Do you own slippers?
a bajillion pairs.

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
in manhattan. or boston.

29. Do you wear eyeliner?
yes

30. Last thing you ate?
spinach, uncooked

31. Would you be a pirate?
yea man, anything to be with johnny depp

32.last time u had an alcoholic drink:
last night. this morning. y'know

33. What 3 songs do you sing in the shower?
celine dion, whitney houston, wicked soundtrack

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
a robber

35. What's in your pockets right now?
im wearing sweatpants....

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
a movie on tv

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
seijas

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
i was accident prone. everything.

40. How many tv's do you have in the house?
one

41. Who is your loudest friend?
hm. adriana devito

42. Who is ur quietest friend?
jill

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
i hope he does

45. What is your favorite book?
i have a lot. a million little pieces, davinci code, pulp, david sedaris everything

46. What is your favorite candy?
good question. i like sour things.

47. what song do u want played at your wedding?
psh come on now. i'm working on prom here.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
i dont know. 50 cent. i don't care. i'll be dead. wind beneath my wings. depressing.

What were you doing 12AM last night?
watching tv at mikes.

50. Do you like the pain associated with Tattoos?
most definitley.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-11T11:32:00

2006-03-11T16:35:22Z

yes! i got into syracuse! not that i'm planning on going there or anything, but it feels AMAZING to finally hear from another school! so far i've been accepted to marymount manhattan and syracuse, i still have to send my mid-year grades to NYU so they can reject me, and now i'm waiting for new paltz and boston to let me know the good/bad news. i really hope i get into boston. i want an excuse to take a trip there. jaclyns gonna flip out when she hears i got into her school <3

today is rehearsal 12:30-5 for me so i can leave early and go to work at ollllives. JACLYNS COMING HOME TODAY! tonight, i don't know.
tomorrow- FIND COSTUME/PROM DRESS. oye. what i really DON'T want to do.

i'm so excited. less than 2 months i'll be 18. then i can tell my parents about mike.
and i'll get the new video iPod. and it will be may. and after my ap. and it will just be a big sunny mess. i'm so excited for spring. this current weather has made me LOVE life.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-05T21:22:00

2006-03-06T02:25:38Z

hand in application for new paltz
go to the gym.
DO SOME FUCKING ART WORK, SILLY.
complete breadth by march...22? yea that sucks.
prom dress
costume for play
figure out ipod/psp situation

okay so the weekend was alright. friday SUCKED. saturday was better. eh. whatever.
i can't wait till i have some more time for myself. yea i'm selfish and want all the time in the world.

im gonna clean my room now. pointless post.

one_oh_one @ 2006-03-01T18:29:00

2006-03-01T23:32:49Z

wonderful. lent has started which means i have an excuse to give shit up. awesome.
spring break is in too long. but i can't wait.
jaclyn comes home in like...a week and a half?
the play is in.......gasp 29 days. i'm gonna puke.
i hope school is canceled tomorrow.
i want to watch 'walk the line' with mike becuase he bought it.
i surprised him at work today. i think i'm learning how to be a good girlfriend.
he already knows how to be a good boyfriend.

my art is kicking my ass. i'm so far behind in everything. i don't know where to begin.

i should probably hand in my application for new paltz before the deadline....shit...and send my test scores to syracuse...fuck....

my concentration: based upon the quote "religion is the opiate of the masses", i basically analyze religions from different standpoints, both faithful and unfaithful standpoints. i look at the situations where religion comes into play (love, drugs, alcohol, seeking help, goodness, faith, death, life, etc.) but i don't want to portray them in a cliche manner. help a girl out? anyone?

one_oh_one @ 2006-02-26T14:47:00

2006-02-26T19:51:18Z

why do i feel the need to save every single person i know, and fix all of their problems, while i leave myself hanging? i don't know. i'd be more upset if one of my friends or family members were broken then if i was myself. i guess that's a good thing, that i can put others before me, but i feel myself being fucked over. physically, emotionally, etc.

well now that that was my weekly emotional drain, my vacation kicked everyother vacations ass. seija, jill and i tore up manhattan on friday. we broke hearts, bitches noses, heels on our shoes....okay not really, but we had a blast. yesterday was eh, i was a mess. i kind of just want to lay in bed all day with a significant other and watch tv and do nothing and not have to say anything. i'm so tired of talking to people.

school starts tomorrow. which means talking. blah. worst month = march.

the play is in...4 weeks? 5 weeks? i had a dream last night that it was the night of the opening show, and i was already really late, and then i realized i didn't have a costume to wear. and i went on stage in the completely wrong clothes. oh god.....

one_oh_one @ 2006-02-23T23:17:00

2006-02-24T04:18:24Z

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I KNOW I JUST POSTED. but i was just glancing back through my journal...and i think 99% of my entries begin with "i got fucked up." or "we got shitttay"

how immature, yet fun!

ooooh alcoholics annonymous, i will be seeing you before i turn 21.

one_oh_one @ 2006-02-23T23:09:00

2006-02-24T04:15:53Z

hello, forgotten journal!

my vacation has been AMAZING. this is exactly what i wanted. tons of nights of hanging out with good people, doing bad things, and tons of nights just hanging out with mike and having him force movies down my throat since he thinks i've never seen any good ones. he's right.

i forced mike to watch project runway AND projet jay with me. yaknow why? cuase those are my favorite shows...but he didn't even mind. he said as long as he could be with me, he'd watch anything. YEAAAAAAAA i felt special. he even kinda liked project jay i think....yea he totally has a crush on him. i got a romantic tour of pt.lookout...which took all of 5 minutes since it's the tiniest town in the world. he got a semi-tour of ghetto baldwin...we left early cuase i was afraid he'd get shot.

tomorrow, working then citttaaay/drunk time with seija. me and seija went, excuse me...seija and i went bowling on monday it was wonderful. sunday we went to Minnesota's for the crazy 80s party. that was a good time.

dear conscience,

no, i haven't started/lookedat/done any of my work. fuck you i know i have to do it. and yes i know that i'll be hungover on sunday and not do it. LEAVE ME ALONNNNE i'm young and i'm not going to remember the provisions for sub-surface mining when i look back 20 years. i'm going to remember that 80s party. or that night of bowling. FUCK YOU, stupid conscience. we're fighting. okay fine, maybe i'll get some art done tonight....i still love you.

love always, your crazy crazy bridget.

p.s. things are looking up. except for colleges. and scholarships. and a bunch of other things. but hey, i'm happy. so leave me alone.

one_oh_one @ 2006-02-13T09:25:00

2006-02-13T14:25:49Z

vermont was awesome. i was a complete waste of life and got drunk all weekend. wonderful.

almost got stuck there.....not cool.
drove for 7 hours home yesterday on icey roads and horrible vision. it was great.

my heat is broken. so seeing that it is 22 degrees out...my house is about 38 degrees. i gotta get out of here.

mikes taking me to the zen palate tomorrow for valentines. what a trooper. the big meat eater is taking his vegetarian girlfriend to her favorite non-meat restaurant. yay.

progress report....not cool.
vacation next week...fucking AWESOME.

no drinking for me during the week this week. i'm detoxing.